Can’t leave now…

So…. been thinking about this long and hard since last we spoke. Given the murder of Nicole Good and the state of the world and my community, and my utter inability to keep my mouth shut in the face of such disgusting behavior. I’m keeping the site going… I will figure out the money thing…. maybe move to more voice instead of typing since my arms are not working very well…. Who knows… but right now, in this world I woke up to, I find it impossible to stop raging against the machine.

Yup, I’m angry; white hot rage most days. Every time I think of what is happening to this world and the past decade how shity it’s become.

I will work through my anger at some point. But who’s to say that anger doesn’t fuel the rage that keeps me speaking out because this world and the blatant homophobia and racism and xenophobia makes me want to throw up. And then I get past the nausea and my blood boils. Because for one brief moment, you won, you made me second guess speaking out; you made me second guess what being an american citizen was and what my rights are. You made me, as an old fucking white lady be afraid to leave my house. And for that your god should condemn you to hell. You should be ashamed of yourself for thinking you can quell the anger inside of me, you should be ashamed for making me feel like I was being confrontational like it was a bad thing.

Guess what?!?!? YOUR DAMN FUCKING RIGHT I WILL BE CONFRONTATIONAL. For everyone out there that feels they can’t I will scream for you; for everyone out there that doesn’t have a voice, I will scream for you; for those out there too subjugated and beat down by the audacity of the old white racist, sexist, xenophobic tiny dicks in the world, I will scream at them for you!! Because I WILL NOT GO QUIETLY INTO THE NIGHT!!! you will drag me kicking and screaming all the fucking way!!! Because I only have so many breathes left to take on this planet, and if I do anything before I get murdered by ICE or another disgusting government agency that’s been weaponized by the pedophile trump; it will be to make sure I scream enough to make being a racist, homophobic, xenophobic asshole feel the pain of their abhorrent beliefs. You are damn right you are not safe to be that kind of asshole on my watch. SO fuck all the way off if you support pedophile trump.

I wonder sometimes if the civil rights movement was full of rage, they just had to express it in a kind way because the asshole white guys couldn’t handle the emotions and they would have been labeled as hysteric and out of control. Well, old white guys; I will show you what rage sounds like and I won’t stop until you hear it. Because you took away the rights to MY FUCKING BODY, you made me fear leaving my house, you made me fear using my rights to help others, you made me fear.

AND I WILL NOT LET THAT FEAR SILENCE ME!!!! SO yup, I’m staying. And if that scares you, it should; because I will scream until I have no more breathe in my body BECAUSE IT NEEDS TO BE STOPPED!!!