how unsafe are racists with me???
I’ve had this question come up and it honestly makes me laugh. So…. I’m disabled… Been, essentially in a coma for 9 years. So…. my body is fucked.. I’ve had to go to PT to get walking down, to get balance better, to be able to cut my food when I eat. I’ve had to stop volunteering because I can barely use my arms. When I try to cook dinner, or use them for much, they go numb from shoulder to tips of fingers and I can’t feel anything…. Then at 3 am the pain kicks in…. massive pain that feels like someone is ripping my arms off. Its excruciating. But most of you don’t give a shyt about my experience. Shyt, you are probably one of the ones that think I’m ‘always happy’…. fuck off
Although I choose to be happy when I go out into the world and when I would volunteer, I was looking at the great things, like being able to walk again and not being completely terrified of people and celebrating being in the world again. After being isolated for 9 years, these are all a big deal to a person who is truly trying to change and get back out into a world that is terrifying.
Most of you didn’t care when you saw me, just made up a story in your head about me being happy all the time… Far from it. Going out for a 3 hour volunteer shift would literally take me 2 days to recover from. That’s not doing laundry, house work, or making dinner or groceries for my family. I had to finally choose between waking up at 3 am in tears from the pain or stopping volunteering. So I stopped. Trying much therapy to figure out this arm stuff… but so far nothing is working….
I woke up to a gross world where racists and homophobic people think they can be open and out there about these beliefs. YOU CAN NOT DO THAT WITH ME. I am not a person you can share your disgusting beliefs with and I will let you share them without getting in your face about how gross they are. You can fuck off. And yes, I will never let you share that belief in my presence without checking you. That’s why you are not safe with me. You will never be safe with me with those gross beliefs and I will always stick up for that. I may not be able to do anything physical; but I will use my words to tell you how disgusting and gross you are and how you deserve to burn in hell and when God judges you, She will not be kind. So fuck all the way off with your feelings of not being safe and get used to it. YOU WILL NEVER BE SAFE AROUND ME, your disgusting beliefs need to die and you need to evolve you waste of oxygen!
FUCK OFF SUE and KAT and CARMEN and MARK and BRITT and JULIE and CARLY, and you other gross assholes I can’t even remember; yup, fuck all the way off. fucking evolve assholes.
oh, and don’t let people borrow money… don’t pay for them to go to a class and say, you can get the next one; cuz a bitch friend now owes me $55 and has a ton of my beautiful fabric that I let her borrow to finish a dress and she never used it or returned it…. So thanks carmen… for taking my money… my fabric and my energy. go listen to sue’s lies and fuck off. You all deserve each other; you have miserable relationships with horrid men yup, you all deserve each other. so fuck off and leave me out of it. Take that $55 and spend it on some therapy….. you all could use it. donate the fabric, it’s far too cool for you to wear.
oh and did I say fuck off???
the blog of beware: oldies not goodies is a fun one to read about these bitches.
they also love bomb and trauma dump, explained more in those posts.
oh yeah, and this one about the true grossness of this group, making racists feel unsafe.
And don’t forget, if you want to harass me about this, read this one.
